As I write these words....I am just 18 days away from the 1 year anniversary of my sisters untimley passing....i can't seem to do anything but cry...and think of all the things I REGRET.... the last CHRISTmas my sister was alive...she was living in HELL in Columbia...she was not allowed to have the gifts that my parents sent her, I didn't send anything...a regret I carry ...very heavy today...just a few day ago I could do nothing but cry,cry,cry...because all I could think was how if I knew it was her last CHRISTmas I would have given her ANYTHING she wanted...I would give ANYTHING to change that now...I KNOW she knew I loved her...but that does not ease my pain at all.....not one bit!!
"But When I get Where I'm Goin and iI See My Maker's Face I'llStand Froever In The Light Of His Amazing Grace"
All I can really do now..is make sure her son knows how much I LOVE him , and how much his momma loved him...how she fought to get him away from the HELL they were in....How she called me, and ask me to come "rescuse" her...how the morning I was coming she called me every 5 minutes...in ture Whitney form...to see where I was...Dear God...had I known then she only had 45 more days left on this earth I would have BEGGED her to stay with me....How can we anticipate whate God....or whoever is out there has instore for us around the next corner? Tell people you love them...or you don't ...no matter how you feel..let them know because in the blink of an eye they...or you...can be gone...and then it is ALL TOO LATE!!! THERE ARE NO SECOND CHANCES ...NONE AT ALL...JUST REGRET....AND IT WILL KILL YOU!!
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